Thursday, December 29, 2005

of being thankful

everyday i thank God i wasn't born in such inhumane surroundings.

insanity.

bee wrote this at 9:06 AM

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of twist of fates

it's amazing how fates intertwine and change when we least expect it.

a boss becomes future client, client becomes future colleague, bitchy colleague turns out most reliable and friendly (amazing), bluemoon drink mates become colleagues, ex colleague becomes new colleague.

she's amused and worried at the change of dynamics now. amused cos the current flat structure would give her great leeway to shine against one other ambitious competitor. worried cos the person who hired her has now an even stronger upper hand as The Client. it's a sticky situation where you can somewhat predict the shit that's gonna happen yet am not 100% sure and would like to hang round for some action. some agency people make great clients when they move over cos they totally understand the business. and some agency people make horrific clients cos they think they know the business hence demanding unrealistic deliveries.

what a wonderful world.

hmmm.

bee wrote this at 8:46 AM

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of human nature

if there's anything that irks her bad, it's intolerant and condescending human forms. she's blogged bout this before but can't really be bothered to find the link now. if you have nothing positive to say about her work nor her industry, she'll very much appreciate if you can keep your humble two cents worth to yourself. after all, (excuse me) what do you know? many things perhaps, but until you're that person (by some stupid corny lightning strike and your souls do the swapping shit) or have personally experienced the industry, what right have you to judge? she's always been tactful of her surroundings but sometimes, enough is enough.

once, twice, thrice.

one of these days she's really gonna blow up.

and honestly, you wouldn't want to be at the receiving end of it.

trust me.

JB.

bee wrote this at 8:28 AM

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

of holidays

we get a full day off this friday.
nothing compared to previous agency and other MNCs who have the entire week off.

egads. beggars can't be choosers i suppose.

bee wrote this at 9:22 AM

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Tuesday, December 27, 2005

of xmas surprises (a different sort)

someone senior in the office delivered the team with a BIG surprise today. the restructuring news came as a shock to her and she found herself trotting between being amused yet troubled thinking about the new scenario and its repercussions, like one of those make or break situations.

bee wrote this at 3:43 PM

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of little time

have been real tied up with work of late and procrastinated on some crucial to do things:
- update writing resume
- download and post pictures of xmas get togethers and whathaveyous
- things to check out in bangkok
- pay dad for inordinately high nov/ dec expenses
- get a new hairdo
- hunt down a damn good foot reflexologist

then again, there's no such thing as no time right? it's all a matter of prioritising. ack.

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was rather disappointed with the food choices at da paolo la terrazza, it was tasty but not exactly the most appealing after three days of christmas gourmet stuffings. in fact, she reckoned they would've enjoyed the pizza sister branch a couple of doors down the road better but like trish mentioned, pizza's not the way to go when celebrating xmas in style. haha, oh well.

watched a dude puked bags at tango's. not the best sight but she couldn't take her eyes off despite the grossness of it all.

bee wrote this at 10:14 AM

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

of xmas gifts

the pseudo master had once again outdone himself with the gift givings, she reckons it'll take her the next twenty years of presents to top his gift value.

anyhoo, a quick rundown of this year's pressies:
- bobbi brown makeup storage box from mom
- tods canvas bag and roadster(not the car la) from dad: oh...my...!
- ipod universal dock from other half
- boho purse from aunty meow
- spa (moisturiser) gift set from abi
- leonardo tealight paperweight from wei and chai
- picard purse from aunty eeleng and uncle rodney

am meeting the ladies tomorrow for a nice post xmas pre NYE dinner at da paolo holland v, so there'll be more pressie updates then.
UPDATE:
- beautiful bottle of lychee liquer frome celine
- old florence keychain from tam
- bag charm from trish (super cute!)

still reeling from dad's gift.

bee wrote this at 5:27 PM

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Friday, December 23, 2005

the day before christmas eve

the week's been mad, crazed, unbelievable.

the supposed half day in the agency doesn't seem to be happening much. ah well, no love lost. got a packed schedule up ahead today. lunch with folks, pickup dubs from digipost, last minute xmas shopping with other half (2 bottles of wine & some xmas desserts from gourmet deli), jason's for dinner, then off to randy's for some pre xmas celebratory gig.

gotta polish up the writing cv this weekend. signing off now, have a MERRY LITTLE CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

bee wrote this at 12:44 PM

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Monday, December 19, 2005

of SPGs

for the first time in her life, she's been labelled as "an SPG".

spg: local definition of a sarong party girl. a local (be it chinese, indian or malay woman) who chooses to be (seen ONLY with white men.

she's sure the new colleagues did not mean it in a vicious way. instead she found it rather amusing to think that some of her new colleagues actually went all out to suss "background information" and "confirmation on sources" for her newly conferred SPG status. hmm, last she checked, mak is still yellow and she, really for the life of her, can't remember dating any white men the past 27 years.

her amusement led to curiosity.

how did these silly people get their "confirmations from?" obviously from some unreliable prick or a case of mistaken identity. perhaps they considered her SPG cos she:
... has starbucks on her desk every morning (american! must be one of those potato girls!)
... speaks english all the time (she's not ahlian like me, must be some stupid educated abroad snobbish girl!)
... God knows what reason those "bo liao" people came up with for this conclusion

anyhoo, guess we'll have to make exceptions that some people are just weird. no point trying to comprehend their thoughts cos one has to be at THAT level to understand how they think.

*good golly*

bee wrote this at 9:57 PM

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house hunt

lovely apartment in queensbridge street, south yarra.

worthy investments:
2 bedder at caravel lane, docklands.

sturt street southbank

oh, and if she gets blessed with a miraculous windfall of A$1.5mil, THIS is the perfect contemporary beauty.

bee wrote this at 11:39 AM

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of singing in santa's hat

had a carolling session yesterday and she's got to admit it's pretty nerve wrecking. it took them not more than three practices to pull this off, fun as it was, she just couldn't bring herself to look at the audiences in the eye when she's singing. that's why she did backstage during school theatres, events and whathaveyous. she has no dang idea how people like larry king and billy crystal could pull off emceeing a show in front of tv's millions. *freaks!!!!*

backtrack to fri night:
she and other half trooped their asses over to randy's obiang eankiam after the first rehearsal. half the crowd's left/ leaving by the time they got there, bummer! but mr r's still going strong despite not feeling well so its three stars for him heh.

perk of the night:
- bucket full of leftover soggy chicken nuggets (woots!)

surprise of the night:
- just when she and cherry were wondering where some not-so-fondly-missed people were, she had her answer that night. golly, what are the chances of meeting someone who knew the two infamous dudes firsthand? *bangs head on wall in horror* chris she can take but the other one, absolutely not. she can only thank God mr alltalknoactionexGAD cum imthehottestgaydudeonearth wasn't around that night. he, who could survive MNC agencies cos of his shit-stirring politics and back stabbing policies.

good grief.

enough of the nemesis. back to happier thoughts, am really forward to the short bangkok getaway in jan, which reminds her that she has to bring this up to her boss about the one day leave. hopefully it'll be approved...in TCK's words, she'll have to make it happen cos the budget flight's not refundable. egads *pray hard*

gonna be another crazy day today!

bee wrote this at 8:51 AM

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Friday, December 16, 2005

of human chemistry

for some warped reason, the ex agency alumni have been chatting more often over the IM now that they have gone their separate ways. they've taken so many things for granted then.

from the superb and well stocked pantry with endless tiger and coke fuel, the freeflow of good pilot and scotch stationery, the freedom of music expression, free TIME magazines (for me), fifteen steps to having a cigarette up to the a-m-a-z-i-n-g chilled chemistry people had.

the only thing not fondly missed were the flooded toilets, leaky aircons and frequent power failures.

cherry and bee's IM conversation last night:
b: wonder where gary is?
c: hmmm, we can do an ex agency alumni project called "where's gary?"
b: hahahaha
c: and part 2 "where's chris?"
b: wahahahahah

bee wrote this at 4:18 PM

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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

of sad tuesdays

it's great being back at work, really. though she's gonna be bitching a whole lot more at least it keeps her mind off other things at the mo. sore eyes have been putting a damper on her mood lately but nothing beats a curt end to a phone conversation. sometimes she wished she was tougher and wouldn't let such things affect her.

guess she's still the atypical woman after all.

it's gonna be a long day today (what's new?), gotta save the energy for bullet biting and fire fighting.

bee wrote this at 8:56 AM

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Sunday, December 11, 2005

of knowing oneself

she hates feeling lost.
she hates feeling like she's got to start out all over.
she hates masking fear with fake smiles.
she hates having to prove herself all over again.
she hates feeling undue pressure from society.
she hates feeling abandoned.
she hates losing out to herself.

but that's reality, so deal with it.

she's had a couple of nagging fears in her mind which she's not able to deal with at this point in time, hopefully, things will iron itself out with time.

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on another note, advise of the week:
b: how do you know who's the right one?
nc: you have to know yourself before you can find the right one. otherwise, you'll end up all over the place cos you have no idea what you're looking for.

such a simple answer to a rather complex question which we most often stumble over...and to think the answer came from a man.

bee wrote this at 1:10 AM

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Thursday, December 08, 2005

of ugly singaporeans and other things

philanthropy sure doesn't work in singapore, especially when you're giving away expensive coffee. starbucks was having a free coffee for all from 5-7pm islandwide in return for any amount you'd donate to the salvation army. she was totally disgusted at how some assholes in the queue rejected making donations. ie, she saw this pregnant lady putting her hand out saying "no" when the salvation army girl approached her in the line. come on. we're not asking for the world here are we? what on earth possessed your thick skin to queue for FREE coffee at the expense of the needy? tsk. fucking morons. if you can afford to buy guccis and pradas, you can bloody well afford to pay $4.60 or more for a branded latte.

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lycra's not made for bigger people so please understand it's not flattering at all wearing something two sizes smaller, and that it pinches at all corners. unless you're michelin man's girlfriend? yuck. moral of the bitchy story? stay away from clinging fabrics that does nothing flattering for you. learn to make clothes and fabrics work for you, not the other way round.

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things that made her smile this week:
- a new pair of brown leathered wedges from UNISA, tang + co
- picked up two great reads: the dilbert principle and miranda eu's shanghai sisters
- comforting smses from old girlfriend
- lunch with sonja
- nursing other half back to normal
- birthday gift from tony: COLORS book
- adorable little kid who ran back to her apologising after he'd accidentally knocked into her bag. how cute.

things that pissed her off this week:
- idiocy. her brain responded rationally only after she'd done something. what a prick.
- tardy attitudes from people
- stupid excuses from people
- cheapskate singaporeans

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that's all for now.

bee wrote this at 7:54 PM

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new day tomorrow

hohoho.

tomorrow marks the beginning at a new agency.

butterfly jitters as always cos one never knows what to expect as she prays for...

... great teammates (bright AEs, supportive ADs)
... people in general are pleasant
... they will give the review in march and pay raise as promised (though pish warned her about the impossibility of this)
... level headed clients
... nice traffic and production people
... understanding and bright creative people (not those "i'm God in the agency and anyone not creative or hasn't won an award is scum")

she hates starting out at new places cos its almost like riding out waves. you've got to hit the real rocky spots and see if one emerges from it still standing or drowning. she went through a really bad patch at the beginning with the second agency but things turned out great after. she was glad to clung on cos she might have never known she was a survivor. its tough treading thin waters where you wake up dreading work, where you suffer nightmares thinking about work and where you breakdown in the agency washroom. sometimes, you'll be wondering if this is the plan God has for you? perhaps so, you have to go through the pitfalls, suffer some humility and learn how to be a better person from it all.

older and wiser.

erm, and perhaps bitchier.

tis the season to be jolly, tralalala lalalala

conversation with tony ting last evening during a smokebreak:
tt: ADs are getting younger these days
b: really?
tt: there're some here who're quite young, like 30-32
b: ... er dude...that's normal. if i was AM at 26 then, i'd better be an AD when i get to the 32 mark else i think i can step out of this industry already.
tt: ...ah...*gets call from partner to hurry up*

bee wrote this at 11:10 AM

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Monday, December 05, 2005

of xmas gifts

christmas shopping sure brings out the bitch in all of us (or her). completed most of the list already, three more to go, great head start this year with the free time, hehe. suspected the father bought something she's been eyeing, as she spotted the folks smuggling a big orange bag into their room last evening. good grief.

was browsing at aliya yesterday and spotted this lovely grayish stone/ring (can't remember its name but it supposedly helps in keeping and restoring the qi in one's body). sad to say, the only sizes left were either too big or too small. guess it's not meant to be. am currently looking out for stones that could channel positive energy towards better digestive and gastric related problems. not sure how much it can help but she digs the novelty hahaha.

bee wrote this at 11:33 AM

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Saturday, December 03, 2005

lost in translation

don't you just HATE those fleeting moments of "sudden forgetfulness?" eg, those times when you stood in front of the ATM machine waiting to punch in the PIN numbers when all of a sudden, your mind's a complete blank and you end up remembering the numbers minutes or hours later?

had a bout of that during an interview today when the interviewer asked yours truly what her favourite books or authors were. she's read so many. the genres varied from fiction, non-fiction to autobiographies etc. BUT SHE JUST CAN'T FUCKING REMEMBER ANY BOOK TITLES NOR AUTHORS during that point in time. can you imagine how fucking embarassing that was?

bloody hell. she wished the ground would open up and swallow her then.

*hence the grumpy mood*

bee wrote this at 1:01 AM

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Thursday, December 01, 2005

of black angus and xmas jazz

food for the soul

had dinner at black angus, one fulllerton last evening with other half, aunty meow and belle. was kind of a "going off" celebratory treat from aunty meow for belle, the housemate at their place. the salmon and black cods were delish though not much can be said about the fluffy chocolate cake. the dessert didn't look exactly up to form even to a chocolate slut. anyhow, the other half chose to have bbq ribs, bad choice, VERY. the poor guy ended up with food poisoning, tosses and turns the entire night, throwing up, bad headache induced by sleepless night. and so she ended up coming over today spending the entire day "nursing" him. haha. oh, had some fun helping bake coconut blackberry crumble too. not bad for a kitchen amateur.

disclaimer: she can cook, just not tedious stuff cos it's a waste of time spending four hours preparing food finished in fifteen minutes. fuss free's the way to go (during uni). now that the new kitchen's on the way, she can look forward to sushi experiments again. awesome.

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music for the soul

should office work take your holiday joys away, do tune in to accuradio's free holiday jazz. guaranteed to put that smile and warmth back into little old you.

bee wrote this at 7:21 PM

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