Tuesday, September 14, 2004
black sunday
those close to me would know why it's been a black sunday for me over the weekend. my only aunt serene passed away on sunday afternoon. it was heartbreaking watching her lose this fight and i can only pray that she's happy wherever she is now. i remembered her painful and hard struggle that morning. her pleas to God for help. her confusion. her fear.i was angry at many things that day. the nurses. the doctor in charge (which by the way did not even turn up, a houseman was covering her duty). the vending machine (only hot water came out, not milo). during a period of time, even God.
is taking her away to be with you the best solution? i had a naive and wishful dream akin that of an innocent five year old where God would do his magic and heal my aunt with a miraculous touch.
of cos i came to realise it was only a dream and aunt is probably in a happier place where she's free of medications, pain and sufferings. she's always been an intelligent strong woman. one who detests long winded lectures, indecisiveness, ignorance. i grew up watching her and so did she. now that i'm all grown up and i watch her leave us.
i've been a free thinker. an agnostic. but for my aunt, i would like to believe she's in the good hands of God and is happy.
And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him. (James 5:15 KJV)
bee wrote this at 8:35 AM
