Saturday, October 09, 2004
father and daughter
pseudo master and foul tempered bee circa 1978
had another nasty episode with him again. why is she not surprised? every decent conversation recently would end up spiralling into arguments. has she changed or has he? she loves her dad. and she knows he loves her more than anything in this world (other than mom). so why can't she appreciate him enough? his lack of acceptance to new opinions and the changing society frustrates her. and these frustrations constantly simmer into balls of quiet anger. and at many a time, the quiet anger blows up.
and she cries because she knows he's saddened by her impudence.
that he's lost his sweet little cherub that he's doted on all his life. the lucky charm who picked winning 4D numbers for him. the little squealy he saved his hard earned money to buy cuddly stuff toys and birthday cakes for. the little girl who used to draw birthday cards for him every year and to have him put them aside without a glance. the girl who knew her dad was vastly disappointed with her tacky results when younger. the one who hardly called home when she was abroad. the one who changed and became more confident and vocal as she grew up. the little one who no longer fears her dad. the parent who's jealous of the girl's closer relationship with her mom. the one where silly pride matters to both. the woman who doesn't know how to talk to her dad anymore. the father who feels lost cos he doesn't know how to reach his little girl anymore.
but she loves him nonetheless.
bee wrote this at 8:25 PM
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At 4:56 PM,
adrock2xander said...
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Bee
ya not the only one feelin the same way...strong and outspoken men and women are considered a threat in the workin world...but back home...they're way past a threat...it's a tickin time bomb that has exploded...
Just remember that he still loves you...
bee said...
thanx heaps mate : )
