Tuesday, January 11, 2005
sit up? and why?
ms bee
had a shoot for a feature article this evening and realised how i could never be a model or talent or whatever. for some really fucked up reason, i find myself stiffening up in front of the cameras and gosh, ended up taking much longer than others to get the "right expression". apparently my eyes were real tiny when i smiled with teeth but that's genetic cos pseudo master's afflicted with similar slitty eyed syndrome too. so i had a challenging task of smiling widely AND keeping my eyes open. now how do i do that without looking puzzled? oh well. i was quite embarrassed by my lack of spontaneity in terms of body language too. am i camera shy then? nah. cos i've shamelessly taken countless self portraits over the years as witnessed here. strange phenomenon but i had my fun anyway.
but that aside. what made me sit up more was how fat i looked in the studio pictures. i had a fucking VISIBLE DOUBLE CHIN and wobbly arms from the jpegs. i need to lose at least five fucking kilos from this moment. can better understand yoanna's paranoia over her weight issues now. for the cavemen's benefit, yoanna's from the reality series america's next top model where she lost like twenty pounds to compete with 9 other model wannabes. ok, no more official shoots till i lose the five kilos.
btw, the three shameless portraits seen were taken after the shoot to prove myself wrong bout the fucking double chins. i dun particularly care if this blog made me sound like an ah lian or bimb but the extra chin's SO NOT FUNNY. waitaminute, it could be the damnin genetics at work again cos the maternal side's got a strong history of The Chins.
why oh why?
bee wrote this at 10:49 PM
