Monday, February 28, 2005
have faith
having grown up in a household of free thinkers and a close circle of agnostic and atheist friends, it's an amazing feat for her to find any standing ground in search of something called faith. those who've known her for eons would know her skepticism towards complete devotion to religon. her mind's ballooning with questions on her life, her next steps and how she's going to find the right path out. these questions have been springing back and forth the past week since she's received her permanent residency down south. she's got the next two years to map her life out and she's torn between many things, in particular the mounting pre-move jitters of moving to melbourne. it's never occured to her the damning possibility of being jobless despite living the grand life of a yuppie here. she could pursue a post grad in creative arts that allows her to reunite with film, explore theatre and finally, delve into writing. there're a dozen and one things she's ecstatic about but the what ifs are at times overwhelming [which is probably why she's been so unfocused the past year]. she's pretty sure she'll survive and thrive in the city of art lovers but what she needs right now is that calming hand to hold and reassure her that she's strong enough to face certain fears and make the right decision.bee wrote this at 1:32 PM
