Thursday, April 14, 2005
the one with many thoughts
things have been moving really fast (work and play) and she hadn't really sat down to think about her plan for the next five years. it struck her that she didn't blog about her permanent residency approval at all. she didn't blog about it cos she didn't know what to write about.she's feeling ecstatic? excited? scared? numb cos its been a year long wait already? why's she not as excited as the first time she mailed the migration forms out? why is she not skipping all the way to the airport right now and looking forth to this new chapter of her life where she can finally explore and live the life she really wanted to since coming back four years ago?
cos she's finally discovered inner peace in her nasty temperament and new found happiness with a special someone. happy cos it's a new chapter of her life, unhappy cos she's not willing to let go of new found happiness and certain friends here. guess things don't always go our way huh. obstacles, people, situations, luck. they all play a part in determining our next steps. she wished things were simpler. she wished for many things but unfortunately there are too many things right now that remain out of her control and grasp.
sniff.
song of the day for once in my life vonda shepard
for once in my life
i won't let sorrow hurt me
like how it's hurt me before....
for once in my life
i have someone who needs me
bee wrote this at 9:29 AM
