Tuesday, November 29, 2005
of cab peeves
1. what is it that you don't understand when i say to go home from heeren to serangoon using serangoon road?instead you choose to act blur and enter the fucking CTE (of which i had to pay ERP) and have the cheek to ask me if i still wanna go by serangoon road from there? the main reason for traveling by serangoon road was to avoid the ERP charges, now that i've paid them, why the fuck would i wanna take another loop backwards? and to think you shook your head and thought me a frivolous woman?! $%#$%#$@#
2. telling me i live next to the cemetery...
look, i know serangoon's a big area and yes there are indeed old cemetery grounds nearby, some excavated and covered with HDB and condo units. but IS THAT YOUR PROBLEM?
3. cutting in between lanes...
i know you've been behind the wheel the past 20 years but it doesn't give you any right to own the roads. stop swerving in dangerously and suddenly just to pick up a passenger cos the fare's not enough to cover any accident repairs UNCLE. just cos you are a "good driver" doesn't mean we're "quick as lightning" like you. tsk.
bee wrote this at 7:40 PM
Monday, November 28, 2005
of dwindling hope
there are days when everything's just going right.then there are days when something plummets your hopes straight down the drain.
i hate feeling the latter just when you're all psyched up, ears all perked up from the excitement only to discover something's not actually the way you'd wanted it to be.
maybe someone's advice was right. i should stop whining and complaining when i haven't really tried all that hard, when i haven't really waited all that long, when i haven't really had much faith believing roads have been mapped out for me. why bother giving me a candy and taking it away before i could actually taste it? so that i know i can have a candy if i wanted? so that i know maybe the candy's not good for me? so that i know i can't have the things i want? why?
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i secretly enjoy something called self mutilation. the emotional pain numbs when the physical comes in. multiple piercings, tattoos, clipping non existent nails and cuticles. the mind's been so conditioned it doesn't even register much anymore. i've tried stopping myself but it's hard as you need another form of distraction and i've yet to find that new form. and on the contrary, the stress ball irks me more than it calms. and i've found a better use for it, a needle holder.
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hate people reminding me of my problems when i'm already up to my eyeballs drowning in them. the next time you put me down by belittling me and coercing me into your industry, i will so fucking lose what self-preservation i have and scream. christmas is coming. just let me spend my only favourite time of the year smiling, not crying.
music: accuradio's holiday jazz
bee wrote this at 8:18 PM
Sunday, November 27, 2005
sight jogging in rome
ever heard of sight jogging? they're so not fucking kidding. at my puny record of 4-6km per run, i'll probably need a 3 month break to accomplish what could have been completed in a week on wheels in rome.strictly for those fit as a fiddle.
bee wrote this at 9:16 PM
of spinning microsites
for a little IKEA entertainment. you can apparently spin through the stylish swede rooms and watch subsequent events unfold. bye bye traditional advertising, hello interactive!bee wrote this at 8:54 PM
of christmas parties and carols
was a jungle at zouk on friday night. there was tam and friends, davin and friends, jules and friends, mei and mike, and randy, trish, yumei and terence, whoa... anyhow, mini drama unfolded and jules had to leave with her another colleague for the emergency unit, completely freaked all of us out but am glad the girl's doing ok now, phew. instead of boogie wooging our weight off at velvet we ended up parking our asses at wine bar instead, cos its rarity that a table's available. jule's bud bryant was there and we ended up talking shop on gaming and consoles. surprise surprise, randy knew bryant too, another six degrees of separation.people came and went throughout the night and by 3am, it was randy, trish and me as the last (wo)men standing. the table topics were loopy after many rounds of one-for-ones and we cracked up at the silly conversations ranging from the beetle to virgins and big dicks, superficial men and complex relationships. haven't had a great time chilling outside for a while, nice.
i'm apparently part of a christmas carolling group this year, it's going to be my first. kinda scary cos i don't usually sing in public lest i'm high/drunk or in the car but its good fun and am looking forward to it.
ps: did some efficient xmas shopping today, double ace.
bee wrote this at 12:05 AM
Friday, November 25, 2005
alchieland beckons
there are some moments in your life where you feel like you've lost control and just want to burst out in tears without being labelled as weak, dependent or unfocused.there are also some moments of frustration where you feel like screaming at the top of your lungs without being labelled as a nut case or out-of-control bitch.
there are some times where you feel like keeping a lid on things and drowning in alcohol without being labelled as taking the easy way out.
sometimes certain actions do not render explainations.
tonight's the night for alcohol and smoke storms.
welcome to alice in wonderland with cigarettes.
bee wrote this at 8:51 PM
NYE PARTY 31 DEC 2005: ROCK NEVER DIES!
met up with the ladies (celine, trish and tam) on wednesday for some booze and good booze food at wala. and whadda you know? ran into jules at wala who was there celebrating a friend's birthday. AND then we saw kelly and caroline later into the evening. am i missing something here or what?anyway, we've decided to do something fun this nye hols without paying twice (surcharge) for booze outside. we've brainwashed tam into volunteering her place for a house party with the nice pool and lounge areas etc. the commitee have decided on the date and theme of gig, it'll be a great tribute to the glam and hard rockers, ROCK NEVER DIES!
anyone invited has to come decked in their fav rocker's outfit be it kurt cobain, david bowie, freddie mercury, meatloaf (for the XXL people), INXS, the osbournes, sex pistols, soundgarden, pearl jam etc. for the more adventurous, i would love to see a group like KISS or someone coming as courtney love. those who do not turn up in "costumes" would be kicked out by the door bitch who'll probably make you down something really foul. celine and i are sourcing for danceable rock music with the likes of bon jovi, triple J albums (ozzie rock compilations), the meatloaf song etc. it's meant to be cheesy and guaranteed oodles of fun. if you have any on hand, please let me know?
conversation of the night:
bee: what the hell is that meatloaf song title? it just slipped my mind
celine, trish, tam and jules: *thinks but just can't remember too*
as we were walking out of wala to grab a cab home...
celine: wait wait i think i've got it..."and i will do anything for love but..."
bee: oh oh! "...but i won't do that"
trish, bee and celine: *started banging heads when they sang the chorus which had some heavy metal stuff going*
what a night.
ps: finger food will be provided, it'll be nice (and polite) to BYO, and if you can't hold your alcohol, please be responsible and drink moderately and by all means kindly find the nearest toilet or drain/bin instead of puking on the host's furniture. you be will held responsible for reupholstery or any other damages.
bee wrote this at 11:57 AM
Thursday, November 24, 2005
the one with judgment day
today's a funny day, in a good way perhaps.2.30pm: got a call from CEO (or COO not sure) of a famous ad agency asking if she was interested in a three month stint. not sure if she wanted to say yes as she was still hoping the agency-of-choice would call her asap by this week. told CEO she'll think about it and let him know soonest tomorrow morn. she was still in awe after they hung up cos its kinda overwhelming talking to the agency's CEO instead of GADs. *sweats*
3-3.50pm: went for a second interview for a client-side job in the luxury category. interview went well but was kinda disappointing as the role was quite different from previous impressions (written job description and first interview). turned out to be something not in line with her strategic career direction. ah well.
3.36pm: missed call from the agency-of-choice which she's been wooing and waiting in anticipation the past two months. of all two months of waiting, the call had to come today at 3.36pm. good grief. anyhow, called the person in charge back, unfortunately person's caught in a meeting right now and will return the call asap. she's so nervous waiting around now...she's ecstatic to receive the call yet unsure cos she doesn't know what the call's about. ARGHHHHHHHH *pulls hair*
5pm: headhunter called asking if she's interested in freelance. apparently three agencies are looking for AMs urgently from now till next jan/feb. told headhunter she's already in direct contact with two of the three mentioned and will keep her posted of interest by tomorrow morning.
5.31pm: still waiting for agency-of-choice to call her back....*heart thumps nervous and hard* this is the time for a cigarette and shot.
bee wrote this at 5:11 PM
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
the one with left toe and birthdays
had an interesting pedicure yesterday.lady: can you take pain?
bee: very well. why?
lady: you've got minor ingrown nails on your big toes, do you want me to remove them as it'll get worse and will hurt in the future.
bee: ok
and it bloody fucking hurts. was praying last night that she wouldn't get a toe infection. not sure if it helped much cos she woke up this morning with a swollen left toe (the rightie is fine though so it couldn't have been the equipment). glad the interview is tomorrow and not today cos she doubts the aching left toe can fit into any enclosed shoe now. egads, hopefully the swell's suffering from initial rawness and would subside by tomorrow.
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the 27th birthday yesterday was a quiet one, pretty much like last year. she's mellowed down over the years, no more centro and alley bar alcohol gigs these days cos the body's been conditioned for detox. she remembered being happily drunk two years ago, skipping along one fullerton and peranakan place, chatting in animated fashion (gestures and all) with the cabbie whilst dom and trish tried to subdue her "enthusiasm", practising yoga breathing to hold the puke down, waking up with horrendous hangovers and gastric attacks. even trish used to wonder how she did all that late nights (4am!) and still be able to wake up for work on thursdays. haha, looks like age caught up with her. alcoholism doesn't excite her the way it used to anymore. instead, chocolate does the magic now, gimme!
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found some interesting books at borders, maybe she'll pop by later to grab a couple using birthday angpows. some may say its not a sincere gift but its not christmas, its a birthday! unless you know this person's tastes well, isn't it more effective allowing the birthday girl the flexibility to pick out what her heart desires? she's never been a fussy person, after all its the thought that counts. here's a jog through the pressies she received over the years:
best ones
- "e" by matt beaumont from tony
- lovely designer mug from aggy
- hermes cuff bracelet from dad
- cash from mom (hahaha)
- HEMA brassieres (the silky ones without padding nor wiring) from chiawei
- l'occitane travel kit from tam
- big comfy beanbag from other half
- quality time spent with good friends
- anything eclectic be it fedoras, chunky stones, paper doll books, home made CD compilations or bakes
if you don't know what to get her, books (advertising, branding, self-help, fun stuff like kama sutras) and lippy pots are your best bet. do not give her photo frames unless you intend to receive a similar one for your next birthday. and if you have no money for anything, time is a great gift too.
bee wrote this at 10:20 AM
Monday, November 21, 2005
the one with the ipod
finally got round to getting herself one, its actually a birthday gift compliments of pseudo master. since it's pricey, she's offered to pay half of it while he sponsors the remaining fifty but he'll probably turn down her offer. picked up the 30GB ipod video (in black woohoo!) last friday and finally transferred her current playlists on the ibook over. great, she's found herself an awesome companion at the gym, running will be a much more enjoyable task now. ACE.ps: got a nice skin too from the other half to go with her new toy.
bee wrote this at 2:17 PM
Sunday, November 20, 2005
short stories
love:it's amazing how relationships progress. such an unpredictable curve it is, picking up at reckless speeds, at times crawling at snail's pace and sometimes turbulent as hell. she found it excruciating at the beginning, putting someone else first and sharing personal thoughts etc but the past year taught her something simple. you can only be a better person if you open up your thoughts to others (cautiously of cos as there's nothing worse than a pain-in-the-ass open book storyteller). simply amazing how talking can bring two people much closer together again.
ps: morbid thoughts "what you love will kill you". an idea for film no?
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leisure and friends:
went for randy, nic and christina's celebration of their fly-by-night win last night at The Pond, niap heng's photo studio which incidently was one of the most impressive she's visited so far over years of personal/work trips to studio shoots. a moment of envy there (sigh).
anyhoo, the guys celebrated the wins by screening a couple of other funny films. a fellow mate's short feature aptly titled DIARRHOEA kinda disturbed her. somehow excessive and frequent aural and visual depiction of two dudes' evacuation of watery feces over bad chilli crabs for 8 minutes is not really her kind of award winning humour. to each his own i guess cos she much prefered randy and team's work. heh, give her stephen chow anytime baby.
on a separate note, embarassed herself when she ran into a(n) uni mate jocelyn at the party and got the name wrong. jeez bee, you could've done better.
had a cracking time talking to trish, alfred and nic while the rest were busy filming outside and others scaring shit with ghost stories. the two dudes are fucking hilarious (without much intoxication even) as the conversation went from ipods (how we should kill ourselves for paying the prices we did), to saving the world with greenhouses and laptops (which will never happen here cos gahmen won't be able to profit on electricity bills) and how nic never has to need to buy anything, really, he gets most of his tech stuff for free, cept for his computer. what the $#%? haha.
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work:
trish and i decided we'll probably stay in the industry for a while despite all the whines and long term goals blah. we're agency people, we live and breathe advertising and it's hard to move out of it cos most things just seem unattractive or stuffy to us now.
oh fuck it.
conversation of the night:
bee: hey, i'm going to bangkok in jan
trish: oh? when?
bee: can't remember exact dates cept its over the weekend and i'd only need to take one day off monday cos tues's a public hol
trish: take a day off? you working already meh?
bee: wah lau bitchy sia (heh). i would kick my ass if i'm not working by then lor.
music: sash's just around the hill
bee wrote this at 2:40 PM
Thursday, November 17, 2005
new bag skin
was getting a headstart with some christmas shopping when she discovered something at the handbag section, tangs. alongside some croc taipan-like supra expensive bags lay a collection of STINGRAY skinned bags. one would've assumed stingray skin to be smooth or waxy but erm, NO. the texture was instead beady, kind of like very intricate bead work except the little beads won't ever fall out.fucking gross. brrr. give me mock croc and fake fur trims anytime.
bee wrote this at 8:39 PM
archi model
aah, the long awaited picture of the architecture model which me and other half had been labouring on the previous week. it took us seven full days till completion. i've also picked up basic model making techniques (ala cutting, materials etc) from this little exercise.
*gleeful smile*
bee wrote this at 11:40 AM
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
nasty memories
not sure what triggered the brain cells last night but it got so bad she woke up at 2am, fretting and tossing in bed with a few bad work memories churning upsetting thoughts. for her entire 5 years in the agency business, she's met a dozen morons and a few good men (and women). the dozens of morons include colleagues as well as clients but she's never in her 5 years screwed up anything like the ISP provider client at the last agency. the nightmares are still well imprinted in her mind and she would cringe at the thought of her own stupidity then.ah well, she learnt from her own mistakes, a HARD one at that.
lesson 1:
never hesitate to switch suppliers at the last minute if you feel uncomfortable cos 90% says your gut feel is right and that you'll be thanking the man up there for saving you a colossal headache after.
lesson 2:
never choose to go with cheaper production/ event suppliers thinking your agency will thank you for making the extra profit cos 99% chances of their workmanship and service is crapshit too. PAY PEANUTS GET MONKEYS. you'll find yourself troubleshooting fucked up whathaveyous from unethical people to responsibility sack hopping and nasty mails for payments over shoddy work. not funny when it happens and she almost got threatened with a lawsuit with the nasty ahseng supplier and overly demanding client. she has worked on such tight timelines before with trusted (but expensive) suppliers and they've always delivered great quality. her mistake was bad judgment but she blamed herself big time cos she definitely could've handled the situation better.
lesson 3:
never ever make decisions on the client's behalf even you're dead tired, sick, don't give a shit about anything anymore and running a one-man-show despite working for an agency. they're fucking tie you down to this BIG (dumb) mistake.
this client had a history of running through agencies like a taitai to her wardrobe. last i heard, the two who took over the account where i left off resigned and not long after, we dumped them. oh, half the client team which we dealt with have also left. they're the clients from hell you know, the kind who gives expired deadlines yet expect MANY versions of creatives, no cent in pocket, red tape and worse, nasty dispositions. a good horrific example below:
- press ad due for wednesday submission
- means FA (final artwork) has to complete by tuesday morning
- agency was briefed only on friday evening (ok, so they worked the weekend)
- presented 2 visuals on monday and 101 retail changes to the ad, finally midnight monday client droid said "looks ok"
- agency proceeded to FA and got fucked by droid's boss who asked why the agency went into FA (conversation took place on tues morning) and that she needed 3 layouts to show her boss, not 2 only. agency got pissed and told her this is not possible with the submission on wednesday unless she prefers to see a fucking BLANK ad space. agency and client in boxing ring now.
- client droid was at the same time taking in 1001 comments from his sales team on how to make the ad better and the agency was ticked off when they refused to make certain changes.
- ad finally made it in time after countless amendments (note extra time wasted coordinating changes with external art director and copywriter cos the inhouse AD was away for vacation and they didn't have any inhouse copywriter).
- agency received a nasty email from client about the whole situation. they didn't do much cos key people knew their hands were tied, especially when there was a particular high titled all talk no action suit prancing around bitching and stirring shit instead of lending a hand. but she believes that what goes around comes around, you get what you give. it's tough being a solo ball breaker and tiring running alone. it's the people that makes the difference, the team players.
and so she opted to get up at 2am and finished an entire homicide novel hoping the gore would take her mind off these unpleasant memories. finally went to bed at 4.30am and was awoken at 9.30 this morning with a call for an interview later today. let's see what they have on the table.
bee wrote this at 10:02 AM
Monday, November 14, 2005
the one with monday morning thoughts
have turned down 2 potential employers and 2 other interview requests. since she's still on salary for the month of november she figured she still has time to be discerning on the job hunt. if things still don't look bright in december, she'll have to take up less attractive offers cos she'll hate to turn out like one of those overly fusspots who end up jobless for more than a year. how the hell do people do that?! aren't they bored outta their minds and sides, brains get moudly at home. hopefully the potential ones can pull through before december then it'll ease up her paranoia and get her ass off to perth for some wardrobe retrofitting shopping, chilli mussels, tan plus points clocking and KL for food, booze and some time with the other half.keep the faith they say.
yeah.
bee wrote this at 10:25 AM
the weekend
the weekend was a blur.friday night was spent on a silly teen flick SKY HIGH. it turned out pretty entertaining i'd have to say! what we beings wouldn't give for such special powers. shape shifter! it's freaky but i reckon the world's gonna be in chaos and we'll need to be exterminated before the new tech generation (or perhaps droids) can start living in peace.
saturday was supposed to be spent with an ex colleague but changes changes and she ended up at randy's where the team was busy shooting for the fly by night competition. AND THEY WON!!!! awesome. the other half was hilarious as a ma-ta (60s policeman in singapore) and the black umbrella dance routine was kick ass. man i miss doing tvcs. getting approvals for budget and storyboards, the casting, recces, pre-pros, highly strung tensions on day of shoot, handling stupid requests during post, watching the commercial on tv. i'm grateful short man (ex CEO) gave me great opportunities during my younger days.
sunday's at grandmas. wanted to drive over to the other half's place for some evening chilling but canned the idea as i got real tired. plus a bad spat with the pseudo master over his lack of general courtesy and fucked up inflexibility on the roads. anyhoo. am glad kendra won the apprentice. got real pissed with tana when she said "her" suggestion of a circular shaped brochure won the competition and not kendra's strategies? look. the shape of the brochure is important yes, BUT no one awards a win to any agency based on the SHAPE of a brochure la. such arrogance, it's not all about you tana but i guess you've probably learnt your lesson now. in the business world, it's social intelligence that sets you apart on top of your capabilities.
was supposed to post the 3d architecture model (which we were labouring on whole of last week) but am procrastinating the slow downloads at home. will prob do it later.
bee wrote this at 9:44 AM
Friday, November 11, 2005
chris fortier night
made the foolish mistake of wearing heels for chris fortier's bedrock session at heineken's attica 2 gig last night. am hopping round with bunions and swollen baby toes, hopefully the pain should disappear in a day or two. chris fortier KICKED ASS.anyway, something really hilarious happened. 3 weird assed middle aged (not cute) caucasian dudes decided to get roaring drunk, turned supra kinky and started banging each other with sexual dance moves. bloody gross but damn funny, at least they're enjoying themselves i guess. it was our entertainment for the night, mak was greatly amused. oh, one of them actually had the nerve to walk up to tam and asked her in his bad slur if she would like to share an ice cube with him (ala he passes the icecube in his mouth to her, bleach). WAHAHAHAHAHAH. how fucking disgusting is that!!! with the rate he's going, who knows what crap one could get from kissing him.
i swear tam had her share of bad pickups last night. in the later half round one plus, she got picked up by another dude, this time a short ah beng who asked if she wanted to leave and have a nice coffee with him. like what the fuck? he's no brad pitt material for sure (haha). anyhow, me and mak weren't sure if tam was wanting our intervention so we left them alone (next to us) for abit until tam turned to me with the cheesiest wide grin mouthing "save me". WAHAHAHAH. sorry babe i should've known. so i tapped my other half on the shoulder for help, tall big guys should scare short bengs away successfully no? but mak was so engrossed in his own trancey world and didn't notice our little predicament. hehe, finally tugged his arm for attention and got rid of the little beng soon after.
btw, saw some hot russian babes too. pity trish, jules, celine, dora and terrence couldn't make last night.
quote of the night:
t: wah, mak's in his own world yeah?
b:(looks at mak with eyes closed and hands in the air) yeah, i think he's enjoying himself alot. *grins*
bee wrote this at 12:43 PM
Thursday, November 10, 2005
am contemplating doing the airy fairy by visting a tarot card reader. then again, some practical hand would jolt me from my bubble and scream that the money spent for an hour of your future would be better spent on pedicures, hair treatments or massage sessions.rats. i'm beginning to tire of taitaidom and its only been almost two weeks so far (last week didn't really count cos the entire singapore was on leave due to the string of hols anyway). sian to the core already. plus i can't really plan for a good trip ie to perth until a source of income's confirmed. not that i've no money right now but its just me being anal, i can't relax like a good ole hippie not knowing what future's on the plate.
jeez.
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am quite hopeful to hear from the latest resume posted. excellent job scope cept for its for much smaller title, ah well, we'll see if anything comes out of it before jumping to any conclusions. after all, the job's on the client's side and does require regional project management so perhaps it could be a rainbow in the waiting.
i'm supposed to be consistent in prayers but faith is at times a thin line. how do i keep the faith going when i don't know how long i can go jumping through loops?
on a different note, i asked adrian this during his wedding last saturday (he and bena's been dating for the past 9 years).
b: "how do you keep it going for so long? 9 years, no bloody joke."
a: "God and faith kept us going. we wouldn't know what to do if there wasn't a pillar of faith between us."
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bee wrote this at 9:56 AM
updated site to check out
tony's finally updated his site (ha), go check the the ting muse.bee wrote this at 1:05 AM
the one with some slack
as a kid, i've always hated adults making presumptions, judgments and comparisons among children. i quit piano in grade one cos at a tender age of seven i could decipher fakeness when i see it. i couldn't take the teacher's sarcasm and disparaging remarks as she constantly pitted me against jane (this other student), telling me and my mom how good jane was and how lovely she looked playing the piano and sorts. yeah, i still remember crapshit like this, weird huh? i remembered detesting the piano teacher and would at times cry in bed thinking i wasn't good enough like jane. isn't it only right to give a kid a pat on the back when she's tried her best even if its not child prodigy material? i think my mom knew how upset i was and didn't create a fuss when i finally gave it up. on hindsight, a silly decision on my part cos i really loved the piano. ah well. we don't always make the right decisions in life.we're not born gifted (unlike some others), we're not born perfect, we're not born with skills but given time, we're able to do many things just like some others so please cut some slack.
grade c people have pride too.
we live and we learn.
bee wrote this at 12:17 AM
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
question of the day
would you be willing to take a step down in paycheck AND title for a job you really like?bee wrote this at 10:32 AM
Monday, November 07, 2005
mornings at home
just realised strong stomachs run in the family. mom and me had our breakfast over cable tv's reality channel, situation critical, a real life ER albeit a more gory version cos you know it's not chicken liver you're looking at. and to think neither of us flinched nor gagged once.bee wrote this at 5:55 PM
Friday, November 04, 2005
ramblings
started my official taitaidom on wednesday, felt kinda weird as i sat at starbucks city hall this morning watching the office crowd stream past. i missed the rush hour, the bitching sessions within the agency and nonsensical whathaveyous.____________________________________________________
on another note, the free time now became an opportunity and was put to extreme good use helping the other half build his model. it's no easy feat, its been three days (wed-today) and we're only like 60% there. you need ENDLESS patience, steady hands and a keen eye for details. man, i've an all new respect for model makers now. am currently nursing sore fingers and backaches.
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caught omara portuondo last evening with tam and jasmine, and she's still as awesome as before. we hung round the concert hall like groupies waiting to catch a glimpse of her up close and personal during the autograph sessions. didn't get many good shots though. by the way, its gonna be my last time having the cake of the day at The Tea Room, esplanade. as yum as the banana melt whatishisname cake was, i'm damn certain $19.50 is an arm and leg for such simple pleasures (especially for someone without a paycheck now ha). at least blood bros cafe had more tummy and pocket satisfying desserts.
bee wrote this at 8:23 PM
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
what's your life lesson?
this was a question posed by tony this late afternoon as we took a nicotine break outside his agency.my answer?
do not react too quickly.
some people consider that a strength, the ability to take action and nip the problem before escalation. but that's my flaw too. what happens when you drop all things and action on a new priority? you lose focus, you lose control, you lose your emotions and you lose your direction.
i've also learnt that it's best to withdraw into the shell whenever i get lost. cos sometimes things are better left unsaid and unknown.
some would say that God is watching out for you, did you forget?
yes, i did.
bee wrote this at 12:08 AM
