Monday, May 29, 2006
the little dreamer
friends and new acquaintances have always been puzzled by her decision to stand by the industry all this time despite the constipated bitching and frustrated tears.it sometimes sucks cos your client's a bigtime bully.
it sometimes sucks when key people have no backbone.
it sometimes sucks when insecure people up there backstab little ones fighting massive fires
it sometimes sucks cos its just not worth killing yourself over it.
the list can go on and on and on...so...
why stay on?
for one simple reason.
cos she still believes in what advertising can do for a brand.
she stuck on for the wee possibility of meeting an intelligent client again. someone whom she could spar with on a friendly respectful level on their journey towards building a brand. she's met a handful over the years and they're real gems. they may not possess multi million budgets but at least they believed in themselves, the brand and the agencies who worked with them. they were valued as partners, as people who could help bring the client's ideas and vision to life together as a team. she missed the basic essential happiness of advertising which she enjoyed so much during her earlier days in smaller firms. she missed good advertising, and most of all, good leaders and clients.
so she leaves you a note from paul arden (taken from it's not how good you are, it's how good you want to be)
notes from the pulpit (pg 118):
i am not qualified to speak about God.
i am going to speak about advertising.
that is something i believe it.
when i mention that i'm in advertising, people's instinctive reaction is that you're trying to sell people things they don't want.
they regard advertising as being a bit distasteful.
i am no more or less distasteful than you.
yes, of course i am selling. but so are all of you.
you're hustling and selling or trying to make people buy something. your services or your point of view.
the way you dress when going for an interview or a party, or merely putting lipstick on. aren't you selling yourself?
your priest is selling. he is selling what he believes in God.
the point is that we are all selling.
we are all in advertising.
it is part of life.
cos she still dreams being part of the next adidas, the next heineken. the next absolute vodka. the next tiffany. or simply, the next big thing who believes in the power of a brand.
bee wrote this at 10:20 PM
morons are...
...like dandruff. it keeps recurring despite your efforts to curb the flaky bits from developing. anyhow, weird analogy.if you want me to RESPECT your timelines,
i expect you to RESPECT mine too.
do not fucking sit on something for 5 bloody days and demand that i give you something in less than 48 hours.
where the fuck do people keep their brains these days? smart efficient people can turn complex jobs into simple ones. dumbass people can turn simple no brainer jobs into crisis situations. life is complicated as such on its own, why make it worse by your own doing?
jeez.
bee wrote this at 8:30 PM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
the inside joke
found this on her desk complimentary of an amused colleague who found some time to document the entire saga they faced during the past months.hahahaha.
bee wrote this at 9:06 AM
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
SUPERsize MEs
its been mackers for dinner the past two nights at work. thank god for corn cups and nuggets. hopefully this wouldn't happen for the next few nights or they'll make excellent talents for super size me II.bee wrote this at 8:26 PM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
of being tired mentally
am so dog gone tired she wished their vacation would come sooner.apparently, she may be tasked to take on another account involving an anal retentive client. why oh why? if this hits her, she'll have to drop at least one cos there's no way in hell she's gonna handle 3 monster portfolios.
"quite ok lar, you guys are doing only one account what."
now that pisses the shit outta her cos the intensity of the grueling pace can only be empathised by the current team. you don't know how bad it is till it hits you in the face.
bleah.
bee wrote this at 11:18 PM
Friday, May 19, 2006
twist of fate
she received a call from an previous interviewer two days ago. it was a pleasant surprise cos she hadn't expected to hear from him since they made the decision to hire someone more "experienced" (in the PR jobscope) last october. anyhow, she went down to meet them again on wednesday just to catch up and see what they have on the plate this time. apparently, the previous candidate has tendered due to some unfortunate health reasons and the firm is looking for a new hire. it was sweet to hear that they remembered her from six months ago and basically made an offer to her straight up this time. the job scope given was fantastic, what made the deal sweeter were the additional perks of being involved in something she's been increasingly passionate about over the past two years. the only big hurdle standing on both sides now is the money. due to the industry salary norms, what monetary they can offer is well below her current paycheck. she's willing to settle not getting a pay raise, but is she ready for a paycut when she's close to hitting the big thirty?she knows she's given this rare opportunity for a good reason. she's done all she can so now she waits. hopefully, someone up there will guide her in making the right choices now.
bee wrote this at 9:07 AM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
new boutique development
woohoooo!new place to stay in bangkok, check out the LUXX Design Hotel.
bee wrote this at 1:23 PM
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
junie's wedding
it was a mini reunion of sorts with the TP mates at junie and john's big day last sunday at the fullerton. here's trish, ms bee and serene fooling round while waiting for the next dish.
that's ms bee *hic* with a hint of unflattering double chin and the lovely lovely bride in a red hot dimsum dolly dress. haha
self portrait compliments of trish
bee wrote this at 5:19 PM
the little chef
what was meant to be a humble home cooked meal for the other half turned out different when his partner alan decided to join us at home for a dinner-cum-work routine. she could only pray the food turned out edible cos it'll be unforgivable making a guest eat untasty food.anyhow, the first home cooked dinner attempt after five years (she's yet to touch the kitchen since perth days) turned out pretty all right. the guys wolfed the food down (or they could be REAL hungry) and so far nobody complained of any food poisoning of sorts.phew.
she didn't take a pic cos she was too stressed out worrying bout the chicken in the oven being overcooked and dry la, the emmenthal cheese mushrooms on bagette burning the house down la, the chicken drumlets on the frying pan spurting oil in 101 directions la, the fusilli pasta going WAY soggy in the boiling water la.
sigh. a day in the life of someone who doesn't cook very much.
bee wrote this at 10:28 AM
Saturday, May 13, 2006
the one on saturday morning
and a really restless night with on/off anaemic problem causing her legs to cramp up bad due to lack of blood circulation. only managed to fall asleep past five in the morning and had the honor of a fucking early morning wake up call at 8.55am from a somewhat super familiar number. thinking it was her client (quite similar mobile numbers), she chose to answer only after the third persistent missed call praying it wasn't some crisis (again) which required them to activate the entire team to work over the weekend. anyhow, it turned out to be her cock tour agent asking when she's free to make payment for her air tics to HK. now that fucking pissed her off. first of all, she bloody hell made a personal trip to the tour agency on a weekday to pay 100% cash. the blur fuck then asked her for her invoice number cos he may have misplaced it???? she was getting more and more agitated by the minute and mr blur finally found out the missing link (maybe he forgot to update his docs or something) and told ms sim that she could collect the remaining documents like airport transfer vouchers etc today or monday. wtf.having a pounding headache but will wash up and head to the gym since she can't go back to bed after the "exciting" conversation with mr blur at nine in the morning. really needed to work off last night's full course home cooked dinner by none other than chef mak. we invited jan and andrew over and had a delightful session with:
- cheese, celery sticks and red wine
- home made bruschetta
- clam chowder soup
- grilled corn cob
- ozzie steak
- oven baked caramelised apples with vanilla icecream (this didn't turn out as good as the previous one we had with VDB and abi heh)
both jan and i were ravenous and distracted talking bout something else and totally forgot to take pics of the food, remembering it only after we're like three quarts done. awww crap. looks like the other half has to cook something for us again so we can blog the pics, ha.
the work out should help with the lack of blood=bad circulation=leg cramp problems some good too. gotta pay a visit to GNC and see if she can pick up some vits, the body's been slacking alot lately and her nails look like they're bout to break from their ridges anytime. plus its junie's wedding tomorrow so its gonna be another full on eight course dinner, she's darn broke this month. the trip, 2 weddings, insurance bill. if only making money was as easy as spending it. oww.
bee wrote this at 9:37 AM
the little girl lost
once upon a time,there was a poor little girl.
one day, she chanced upon a nice stranger who took her in.
he gave her shelter, tender love and care.
she was grateful for she is finally loved and treasured like all the other little ones.
so why does she find herself afraid, at times trying to distance herself?
was she skeptical the stranger might leave and she'll end up lost on the streets alone someday wondering if there'll be another nice samaritan to take her in?
or will she end up wandering and growing old alone?
someday, a voice tells her.
someday, your day will come where you'll feel more loved than you've ever loved before.
so stay strong my child for the weak will not survive to see this day.
bee wrote this at 3:48 AM
Thursday, May 11, 2006
shed the fat
after all the unnecessary stress, where the fuck did she find the means to put on 1.5kg?jeez.
on a side note, a quotable conversation with a himbo:
bee: do you need me to pass you the pillar poster artwork too?
himbo: ...(silence)...does the pillar come with the poster?
bee: ...har? ...er, pillar poster's just a functional name for a poster that's to be stuck on the pillar, so no, it doesn't come with the pillar
himbo: oh, i see. then yes, i would take the pillar poster then.
bee: ...
bee wrote this at 8:14 PM
Monday, May 08, 2006
to hk to hk
though she may be giving her annual summer sale pilgrimage a miss this time (too early) but it'll be good time spent with the other half at the cosmopolitan from 2-6 June.things to do before the trip:
- contact mommy jiayi
- contact sumei and see if ernest's popping by during that period as well
- get travel insurance (touch wood if some mainlander steals their luggage)
- pack breathable clothes
- apparently there're no fixed dates for summer sales according to her ex hongkie client, they simply start when the heat is on. so she's praying hard that summer starts early this year
woo hoo!
she's on leave 15 may so its gonna be a super long break this weekend. man she ain't feel like working already.
bee wrote this at 11:51 AM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
having faith
strange how some people can remain close despite not keeping in constant contact with each other.ran into an old colleague cum friend at the timberlux flea market last saturday. they've always had something in common but she can't quite put her finger to it till she was in bed last night that it hit her. they were both going through similar roadblocks in life.
there are some women who are emotional dependent all their lives (the kind that're never single). and there are some who totally shun relationships. and then there are those in between ones who crave companionship yet can't quite decide if relationships are for them at all. it's always nice having someone to return to at the end of the day, someone to cry, laugh and hold onto for that unconditonal support and not be afraid to tell you what a bitch you are at times. but then again, there are times where you feel like you're not living life to its fullest. you could've packed your bags to new york for that culinary course or picked up the courage to start anew abroad without thinking thrice about your actions and its consequences. it's scary as hell thinking the new career may take off at the expense of losing a very cherished one. she's seen many of her friends getting hitched and having little ones, while others were fretting bout when's their turn, would it be before they hit thirty? but she still ain't feeling the heat for legal commitment now, is there something wrong with her? the freaky institution scares her.
the weakest thing about her is risk aversion. be it relationships or work. for years, she's dreamt of being many things. a dress designer, a canvas artist, a non fiction writer (gave that thought up cos she needs a damn good editor to summarise the lengthy work), a fashion editor, a bed and breakfast owner. but she's never worked at those dreams, it's like an empty ambition and the disappointment in her lack of drive is finally getting to her, especially after seeing how an old friend decided to quit the industry after six years and explore new territories.
she's easily swayed and she's not afraid to admit her lack of focus cos there are many out there who, like her, simply don't know exactly what they want out of life. they're no young punks anymore after spending the past thirty years deliberating and are only now beginning to charter a new way of life. after all, it's never too late right?
have faith. success can be created with your own hands if only you believed in yourself.
music: you don't know me, ray charles and norah jones
bee wrote this at 8:36 PM
Friday, May 05, 2006
an ideal present
awww. something she would so love to bring the other half to.bee wrote this at 7:26 PM
mobile homes
the wonders of hybrid design.
bee wrote this at 6:16 PM
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
bout me
I AM: in need of a getawayI WANT: to save more money
I WISH: i had a good strategic boss to learn from
I HATE: people who over promise, people with no sense of urgency and slow pokers
I MISS: chilling at cottlesloe and freo
I FEAR: being lost in the outback alone
I HEAR: only selective stuff
I WONDER: what would happen if i told someone up there to shove his dick down his own ass for not thinking before speaking
I REGRET: not asking for more money when opportunity arose
I AM NOT: as bitchy as i appear to be
I DANCE: with alcohol, good mates and kick ass music
I SING: ONLY in the car
I CRY: when i'm not able to shoulder the load of ridiculous responsibilities anymore
I AM NOT ALWAYS: angry
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: good clean dishes
I WRITE: to vent
I CONFUSE: personal and work
I NEED: more money
I SHOULD: adopt healthier living options
I START: small, always. the bigger the expectation, the bigger the disappointment
I FINISH: what i start, always
I LOVE: the smell of freshly roasted coffee in the morning
I REMEMBER: being not so well off growing up, so i value where i am now.
bee wrote this at 9:37 AM
red hot tonsils
the fucking tonsils have been inflamed again. must've been the:1. unstoppable consumption of pork floss (the stuff which people bring back from bangkok)
2. restrained anger at the stupidity of (non) crisis situations
2. almost daily lunching of fish and chips at aromas
3. daily late nights and early mornings
4. daily cigarettes and copious amounts of coffee (from cedele, dimbulah, the agency, starbucks)
and yes, in that order.
btw, the agency is on the lookout for junior suits and creative guys. drop a note on msn if you're interested, and this offer is valid only for those on her msn list, not every tomdickharry. sorry, ain't no headhunter here.
bee wrote this at 8:57 AM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
where's the beef?
had a kick ass grilled ozzie steak fest at the other half's place. thanks to chai (his bro-in-law) who brought enough beef home from his perth vacation to feed three families over the weekend. haha. darn cos she forgot to snap some pics of the juicy steak in the making.bee wrote this at 9:19 AM
