Monday, October 31, 2005
tis the season to be jolly
christmas cheer
my favourite holiday of the year's coming. a pre toast to good cheer! (and hopefully a new job soon)
bee wrote this at 9:02 AM
chihuahua!
tam's sweeties
left the agency late mid day last friday and headed over to tam's place to check her two new additions sophie (middle) and charlie brown (extreme right). charlie's adorable, typically male, he was playing by himself and was alot more composed than the females (yuki extreme left, soph and rosa who's not in this picture). they always have a habit of walking tam to the door when she's leaving the house. how sweet is that?
*sigh*
bee wrote this at 9:00 AM
the one with zouk
the boys at zouk
darren, randy and daniel sitting on the new swanky bench tops at zouk.
bee wrote this at 9:00 AM
Thursday, October 27, 2005
the body shop
bummer. was about to leave for gym when she realised she's left the bag of toiletries and makeup back home. guess it's meant to be cos the stomach problem's been at it AGAIN now.was real bad last night, the wind was creating little tornadoes in her stomach causing a bad rumble of grand marnier and oysters. this chronic indigestion (wind, gas, low stomach acidity) can supposedly be corrected by eating slowly and chewing her food thoroughly, taking lactase enzymes before consuming milk products (lattes), seeing a doctor to ensure symptoms are not related to some medical problem (ulcers and shit) and consuming the right stuff. which brings her to greater depression cos she now has to avoid gas inflating foods like beans, corn, red wine, beer and even wheat; all of which she loves. to make matters even worse, in order to reduce the amount of unnecessary air consumed, she has to avoid chewing gum, hard candy and smoking.
alternative medicine like amritdhara herbal tabs, an ayurvedic herbal preparation that's apparently effective in relieving excess flatulence, stomach gas, stomach pains and abdominal bloating, plus it reduces acidity in the stomach. worth looking into for sure.
she'll be seeing a doctor next week if the problem persists (damn long considering its been an on-off basis since she was a baby). she's worried bout it morphing into some fucking awful problem like human intestinal parasite worms ala the swelling of veins in calf issue last year which freaked her out upon hearing its a suspected case of DVT (deep vein thrombosis).
question of the day: why worry so much about your job hunt when health is more important?
answer of the day: cos i need the money if my health's in the pits, where does money come from if i don't have a job? from the tree? from the sky? from you?
*echoes*
bee wrote this at 4:09 PM
the hongkee name movement
our dear lay-sir aka randy has gone quite wild, see abi's hongkee story here.bee wrote this at 11:19 AM
healing souls
i missed perth for many reasons but most of all, because it never failed to give me a sense of peace each time i returned.maybe i will make that trip after all, getting away for a bit would be good.
music of the morning: the way you look tonight
bee wrote this at 9:02 AM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
another six degrees of separation
OH! you're julie from her blog!OH! and you're abi from her blog!
OH! you're trish from her blog too!
OH! you're the jaime from XXX!
OH! you're the abi from XXX!
and all i did was nod my head.
bee wrote this at 4:14 PM
house hunt
this 2 bedder in south yarra is just perfect.bee wrote this at 11:47 AM
Monday, October 24, 2005
verana
O...M...G...found this beauty verana in the lush jungles of yelapa, mexico. views from the bungalow and casa chica's decks are absolutely breathtaking and its only open from november to june. and if you can, do watch the video. simply amazing! will be adding mexico on the travel wishlist on top of cuba. guess japan and new york will have to wait.sidenote: i'm beginning to really dig eco hotels.
bee wrote this at 1:33 PM
the one with the new zouk
went to the refurbished zouk last friday and i swear i've never seen such disorganised queues by its management before. they just weren't able to solve the sardine situation quickly and weren't hard enough to thrash queue cutting fuckers at re-entry lines. anyhow, the new zouk looks just like its KL twin now, not a good thing but who gives a crap as long as they still play kick ass club music right? haha.anyhow, jules, trish and me braved the ridiculous sardine packed queues (i should have taken a picture/video where hundreds of people were plastered body to body at the queue lines). we were having a great time on the main floor when this peculiar caucasian guy stuck himself between us and stood there like he was some brad pitt adonis statue. we thought nothing of it initially so i simply moved round behind him to join the girls. then this ass DID IT AGAIN. he moved away and came back in between us and leaned his arm against the damn wall where we had to play peekaboo at each other. our sarcasm was so obvious any prick would've gotten the point that he was in the way. worse yet, he wasn't even clubbing, he was simply standing there like a bloody rock for goodness sake. we didn't want morons spoiling the night so we moved around him again and stood close together... and you know what? THIS DUDE HAD THE FUCKING GALL to station himself between us again. what the fuck is his problem? if you want to pick chicks up, all you have to do is ask instead of acting like an idiot taking up what insufficient dance space there was. jerk.
anyhow, backtracking to some minidrama rollers as we were getting in. if there's one pet peeve i really hate about club cultures, it's inconsiderate queue jumpers.
cat claw of the night (i)
"can you let me pass? i need to get in" ah lian who pushed and shoved her way behind us
"i would love to but as YOU CAN SEE we can't even move anywhere" jules
"but i got my friends inside waiting for me, i have to get in" ah lian
"excuse me, but you're not the only one with friends waiting inside" jules
as the young lian fumed behind, we wondered about her intelligence and when her cake of makeup would melt. how in hell did she think we were able to let her pass? oh wait! we could've body surfed her in, and maybe at some point, throw her onto the floor at velvet, fast and chop chop no? darn, i should've thought of that suggestion to her earlier.
cat claw of the night (ii)
"i can't believe some people think they're size twos and cut queues by pushing people aside like this" ms bee ALOUD to jules
3 oversized bengs rudely shoved their way up front next to us. i became highly irritated when i saw one of them trying to push trish (a petite six 6) aside so he could get ahead. i had to put my arm across her shoulder and block the dude lest he suffocates my good friend.
cat claw of the night (iii)
apparently one arsehole decided to have a good try at the reentry line when he was supposed to be at the far end of the entrance line (he hasn't paid yet). four silly bouncers stood around arguing with mr good try to get his ass back to the correct line when all they had to do was escort mr good try out and get the rest of the sardines in. and i got really pissed off cos the crowd behind was impatient and i could feel my claustrophobia big time again...so i shouted "EXCUSE ME BUT WE ARE RE-ENTERING!" mr bouncer got the message and told mr and ms good trys in front of us to move aside so that we could get in.
jeez what a night.
bee wrote this at 9:50 AM
sweet things
i've always scoffed at sappy people in relationships for much of my entire life. although i grew up with disney and its sweet valley high likes, it only made me more cynical and bitter as i realised love isn't easy nor perfect like the ones on tv and paper. so where or who's the problem here? at some point in my life, i stopped seeking answers with my foolish heart and i stopped asking for someone to love but strangely enough, things always fall into place the moment you stop looking.i needed the shelter of someone's arms
and there you were
i need someone to understand my ups and downs
and there you were
with sweet love and devotion
deeply touching my emotions
i wanna stop and thank you baby
i just wannt stop and thank you baby
how sweet it is to be loved by you
how many times can you fall in love with one special someone?
many.
and so i've become some sappy shit too *guffaws*
bee wrote this at 9:11 AM
Friday, October 21, 2005
dinner with the ladies
last evening was spent with tam and celine at first thai, located at the end of purvis street. they've got delish crab meat fried rice and excellent minced pork with basil too, yum. oh, apparently the waitress mistook us for thirty- something women. wah lau eh. three single women having dinner together makes them old maids issit?anyhow, headed over to essential brew for some tea, darnest decision we made cos i reckon we would've enjoyed ourselves more if we stayed at menotti. the guys at essential brew are sweet and polite BUT the service speed has got to be one of the MOST retarded i've ever seen. it took them like 10 minutes to tell us white peony tea wasn't available. ok, fine, so we picked the glutinous green tea and were told like another 5-8 minutes later that the green tea may also not be available. good grief, so can you please tell us what you have instead? tsktsk. plus shouldn't you as the service staff be notified about what's available or not and inform your customers asap instead of letting them sit around waiting twiddling their thumbs? anyhow, we didn't make a fuss cos the guys look terrified of us. which brings me to another point, do we look that intimidating? anyway, nice as they are but i'm really particular about service standards and if you're telling me you're closing at 11pm (we got in at 10), shouldn't you be a tad more responsive and speedy? last time i'm stepping in that place though, all it takes is ONE bad experience.
quote of the night:
"my ovaries are DORMANT, not EXTINCT"
came about after our female pep talk on long term injestion of contraceptive pills. haha.
bee wrote this at 9:53 AM
Thursday, October 20, 2005
the thing called style
what would you say when someones asks you to "describe your style in a few words?"hmmm, there isn't a clear definition cos she dresses like how she feels in the morning. anything goes; from scruffy to vintage, at times martha stewartly, grannyish, masculine simplicity, boho, oriental and most times, mismatched. but it's ok as long as she doesn't look like one of those CBD clones. anyhow, about the little pick-me-up. bought the sep/oct issue of vogue living (australian version) and my my, are the homes looking so pretty. ace. something to add onto my in- progress mood boards for new place which should be ready by next August. though i think the other half would cringe when he sees it (we've quite varied tastes, an eclectic vs modern contemporary). *guffaws*
and just who the hell coined "stylo mylo"?
bee wrote this at 1:12 PM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
random thought of the day
i think my heart needs a diet.by the way, TODAY IS FILING PAPERWORK DAY.
how fucking exciting!
update: whoa! DONE with all paperwork, super efficient day. just hit me that i'm one of those paper garang guni people; keeping unnecessary stacks of recycled paper around me.
bee wrote this at 9:04 AM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
the one with a heavy heart
took off late mid day and headed off to the other half's place for some together time. was in the midst of picking some sweets at the counter before i leave when our receptionist and financial controller appeared, and so we had a little impromptu chat. the nonsensical conversation started out with the limited candy offerings to finding out about my FC's new job confirmation and that her last day's this friday. i certainly didn't see that coming cos i'd assumed she'll be hanging round till nov for a really good "package" since she's been here 4-5 years. i know i should be feeling happy for her but i can't help this wave of sadness and crumminess rushing towards me. watching your mates cross the finishing line towards a new chapter while you stay in limbo toeing the lines just makes you feel like shit. i can see my faith and confidence wavering as the days go by, wondering if perhaps the problem (not being good enough) lies with me. i know i shouldn't be feeling this way and i keep telling myself i wouldn't be here today if i was crap and that my purpose on earth is not about me but many other unexplainable greater things in life.thanksgiving for the night: to the big guy up there for the sweetheart he gave her.
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on a truly sadder note, was watching full circle with aunty meow (other half's mom) and teared at aunty monica's story. one would've thought these things only exist in danielle steel's tragic romance novels but no. can you imagine a woman falling in love, giving birth to a new born only to lose the love of her life without the chance to say goodbye?
it's so heartbreaking.
bee wrote this at 8:55 PM
Monday, October 17, 2005
A to Z
i'm bored stiff though there's still plenty of editing to complete.A is for age: 27 this nov
B is for booze of choice: toss between champs, apple martini and gin tonic
C is for career: advertising cynic cum taitai writer
D is for your dad's name: KC Sim
E is for essential items to bring to a party: booze and dessert
F is for favorite song at the moment: norah jones and ray charles's here we go again
G is for favorite game: toss again between othello (its not fucking black and white or reversi you morons) and scrabble
H is for home town: Singapore
I is for instruments you play: none (minus the one year of piano when i was eight)
J is for jam or jelly you like: strawberry jam and only with scones, not toast
K is for kids: beginning to have a soft spot for them after 27 years
L is for living arrangements: living with folks till i move over to australia
M is for mom's name: mewleng (it's totally freaky that our mothers share the same name, me and other half)
N is for name of your crush: no hot hollywood stud of the moment
O is for overnight hospital stays: yeah, happened this year, some weirdass swelling of veins on left calve, hooked on liquid antibiotics for three days and got tested on every blood test possible
P is for phobias: trapped in an enclosed space with long haired cats
Q is for quotes you like: That which does not kill you makes you stronger by Neitzsche
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: 3 years long distance
S is for sexual preference: emotionally bisexual, physically heterosexual
T is for time you wake up: mostly sevenish in the morn, even on vacations
U is for underwear: cotton with spandex
V is for vegetables you love: broccoli and corn
W is for weekend plans: gym, coffee and book reading
X is for x-rays you've had: chest, lungs everything
Y is for yummy food you make: grilled mushroom and mozzarella toast and other unspeakable experimental foods from uni days
Z is for zodiac sign: scorpion and sagian
bee wrote this at 4:06 PM
video peeve
last friday early evening at videoezy, simei:m: need a break, let's watch a brainless show.
b: sure
m and b scurries off in different directions around videoezy scouting for their own versions of "brainless".
m and b: i found it! (was funny how we both did that at the same time)
m: ok, let's see yours?
ms bee presents LEGALLY BLONDE 2 much to the chagrin of mr mak. his sour expression was so funny she couldn't stop laughing.
b: what's yours then?
mr mak presents some russel crowe gladiator like flick, can't remember its title now.
b: this doesn't look like a brainless film?!?
m: but legally blonde is so...?!?
b: you said brainless flicks, this is the ultimate silly flick no?
m: hmm, tell you what, why don't we both put these back and go pick another film where we both agree on and we won't leave here till we do
b: orh
after some time, the other half announced he found something.
b: what?
the other half presents white castle (the harold and kumar thingy). now that's something brainless which we both wanted to catch some time back and forgot about it till now.
b: awesome, ok, this is it (finally!)
where are the good films when you really need one?
bee wrote this at 11:05 AM
Friday, October 14, 2005
NOT AGAIN
fucking spilled tea on myself AGAIN.NB.
ms bee: pls always remember to either finish the damned tea or bring it to the sink if you can't finish it. do not leave it lying around your desk you clumsy poot.
bee wrote this at 3:03 PM
how do you define "it's me"?
advertising may be alot of things, sometimes lies and sometimes icing on the cake. i almost spilled the tea i was drinking when i saw metro's tagline metro, it's me!, in a black and white quarter page ad in ST today. isn't that a weird proposition considering they're not the "coolest" brand around?i've got nothing against them, in fact i loved shopping there when i was a kid right up to my late teen years. metro's been around for eons and i've always loved shopping there during christmas. remember the huge metro store at the royal plaza on scotts hotel (next to pacific plaza) where DFS is now? and the metro christmas magic TVC? the huge christmas tree in store where you hang your lucky draw coupons? the mountain of generic teddy bears in pink and blue which you could purchase at a minimal with any purchase of eg $50 at metro? i do. the bear was a treasure to me cos we couldn't afford luxuries like huge stuffed toys then.
the royal plaza on scotts branch closed after many years and they moved across the road to far east plaza which wasn't too bad either. i liked rummaging the metro outlet at far east cos for some warped reason, they always had some pseudo vintage looking dresses lying around. the "messy" layout, crowded aisles and dim lighting gave me a sense of cosiness, heh. sadly, that outlet came and went as well.
it's almost all gone now. the nostalgia's taken away as they tried to upgrade their "auntie image" to a spiffy and modern one. move with the times you say. yes, but why move your messaging away from something simple and clearcut along the lines of hmmm... affordable shopping for the whole family as opposed to something vague like it's me!. perhaps they should learn a thing or two from huggies, value for mommies, comfort for babies... now that's a good proposition! easy to understand with a clear target consumer in mind.
really, what does metro. it's me! communicate about your brand? wouldn't it make you sound like you're struggling to be hip and cool but so not?
mind boggling indeed.
bee wrote this at 1:30 PM
Thursday, October 13, 2005
new discovery in KL
i've found the perfect new place to stay in KL, Hotel Maya, something contemporary which the other half would be delighted with (maybe not the price though).bee wrote this at 12:51 PM
its the little things
finally had a nice quiet dinner with the other half at the chinese swimming club last night...after like four months i think? holy cow. it's nothing fancy but its just nice being out with your loved one despite the ungodly work load of his. dinner was a good despite the other half's absolute disgust at durian puree sitting on top of the ice kachang (so my other half can be best friends with trish who hates durians too). headed back to his place just in time for the amazing race. hehe, the evening was simple yet it created a sort of fuzziness deep inside. aaah, the little things in life that completes you.music: nice and easy tim tamashiro
bee wrote this at 10:34 AM
growing up with mtv
“I do not have low self esteem, I have low self esteem for everyone else.”Daria
created by the producers of MTV, daria was first introduced as the only female friend on MTV’s controversial cartoon, beavis and butthead. i fell in love with this toon diva when i was 19. i loved her wit, her dry, sour disposition and sardonic nature, she was like THE epitome of teenage irony. she may be american yet her identity's strangely not.
she was classified as a cultural phenomenon and the archetype for all misfits of the world, regardless of age. obviously, daria wasn't produced for tween consumption alone. like the simpsons, king of the hill and ren and stimpy, they've been created for the grown up audiences. daria’s notoriety and characteristics are best known and uncannily similar to the subculture generation xers no? don't we share a similar disillusioned, cynical and sober perspective of society and family that no one else seemed to understand? (yes, i'm an xer and at times despise the opportunities which baby boomers had).
digressed. daria appeared to be used as a subversive tool in concealing propaganda or messages frowned upon if displayed directly. controversies about american imperialism and how american popular culture has often been targeted and criticized as “debased, manipulative and narcotizing”. but honestly speaking, how many programmes out there are produced purely for entertainment (except reality programs) rather than messages about society? i mean, the local dramas are a good enough example where the gahmen tells us when to have babies, why we should live with our parents, why young couples should get married blah. what may be seen as a mindless comedy has in fact a different kind of social criticism built within it.
likewise our local propaganda, daria's essentially a parody of american teenagers and society. each episode is presented in the form of a narrative of personal events circling around her, her sister Quinn, school, family and friends. she may reject society but she has to learn how to live with and in it. the humour derived from the irony and hypocrisy in daria allows one to take life less seriously and see a different side to life. daria’s skepticism and mistrust for things and society affirms her character as a derivative of postmodernism. the show does not offer any sense of utopian ideologies, it is in fact the contrary. the dysfunctional family in daria where nobody listens to anybody, say... isn't that a mirror image of the present society?
being the brainchild of MTV’s sizable animation unit, daria also displays a strong resemblance to her channel’s style and discourse. media scholars or academics have long ignored MTV thinking it as anarchist, much to the extent of essentially pointless playfulness. but daria's a rebel. she manipulates her parents, mocks her peers and does not really care what anyone thinks of her, the attitude and lines reflective of MTV’s culture. it's complex trying to separate a discussion on daria without bringing in MTV itself. the latter has always been part of popular culture; critique or praise. many have always thought of MTV as a flurry of images that invoke negative behaviour or characteristics among the “mindless” younger generation (hey i doubt LKY ever watched this pop culture "rubbish"). daria may not be “real” cos of her animated status but she offers her viewers a construction of her world that generally does not expect much from society. it's a celebration of teenage species and their angst, displaying their disaffected natures as “pseudo intellectuals”. the comedy and satiric storyline of daria could be MTV’s way of using amusement and self reflective sarcasm to imply that something is profoundly wrong with the contemporary society.
television's like a mirror, a version of reality and if we chose to ignore programs on television, are we then choosing to ignore the changing cultural phenomenon and the younger generations who would grow up to be future leaders?
bee wrote this at 9:32 AM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
the one with the halfday
TODAY IS SELF-DECLARED HALF DAY.note: we take turns round the suits. yesterday was ms v, today's ms b. YAH me!
hey don't be envious, we only get to enjoy this "bo cheng hoo" liberty once in our entire lifetime (cos God forbid your future agency be taken over again). and just in case you're wondering, the client's finally gotten the message that we're no longer around, KAPOOT soon and have stopped sending 4am email briefs to us. double yah! which leaves me plenty of time to work on the feature article and follow up on interviews.
breakfast: pringles and water, running out for coffee when the recep comes in, lest i've to lock the place up cos no one's in yet.
bee wrote this at 9:33 AM
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
to perth to perth
pisses me off when all good priced flights come in pairs or more only.qantas: $328 (excl taxes at $296)
SQ: $600 (excl taxes) versus $321 for 2 to travel
garuda: $615 (excl taxes)?? either garuda or zuji's lost their marbles
MAS: $482 (excl taxes)
royal brunei: $458 (excl taxes)
budget airlines apparently stopped flying the perth route...!?
*sulks quietly*
bee wrote this at 3:39 PM
morning thoughts
very often she would stop herself from certain actions in fear of what-if repercussions. but as she aged, she realised what it also means to kick yourself in the arse five years down the road for being a chicken shit; and so she stopped the self- deprecating apprehensions. if this turns out successful, she would probably see herself relocating to australia much earlier than anticipated. you win some, you lose some cos certain things are just never meant to be yours. she's done all she can now (whoring the resume) and she's leaving it all up to the big guy up there, perhaps he can take her hand and guide her from this painful crossroad.on a brighter note: just got another assignment from the editor, which means extra income for dec. kick ass.
music: accuradio
bee wrote this at 10:09 AM
Monday, October 10, 2005
sweet gastronomy
dessert at projectshop cafe
the next time you visit the projectshop cafe, please leave some tummy space for their lovely banana mango crumble with vanilla icecream. it's a little hefty at S$10, but a must try for all dessert whores.
dessert whores are people like me who
- work their menu backwards (dessert first and if stomach has no more room, skip the main course)
- often stop in mid sentence, dismissing your conversation to peer at cake displays
- never turn down anything savoury (ok, maybe one. green tea cheesecake; the combined texture is super dry and leaves a layer of eekiness on your tongue, super gross)
- find emergency rooms in their superbly filled tummies to accomodate damn fine chocolate cakes
- doggy bag unfinished desserts at house parties
bee wrote this at 1:51 PM
new tanning suit
new swimwear
found this little cute number at a swimwear shop, far east plaza for only S$8 (yes, top and bottom). awesome.
bee wrote this at 1:50 PM
quote of the morning
choose your battles wisely, some are just not worth fighting.bee wrote this at 9:54 AM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
pain calms the mind
in a maniac fit to distract herself from last night's disturbing and heavy hearted dream, she began trimming her too short nails, again. the unsightly nails and cuticles have turned pinkish raw now and she wonders why this simple yet sick physical pain regime never fails to bring her a certain sort of calmness. maybe discovery's travel and living would bring her some cheer. if you can't live the luxurious beach resort lifestyle in person, it's nice imagining it too i guess.by the way, mom's front crown (fake tooth) came off last night and the silly dentist isn't available till tomorrow. so the mother is missing one front teeth and some molars at the back which are currently in the "moulding process", how cute, and very expensive.
bee wrote this at 3:23 PM
Friday, October 07, 2005
internal calamities
it's so frustrating dealing with a team of clients who don't "talk to each other". it's madness how we can have MASSIVE email chains flooding your inbox on ONE item which can be clarified within 30 seconds face to face or over the phone. and the most funny thing...why can't you ask your colleague sitting opposite you for instant replies instead of emailing it? if your objective of mailing was to "document" you doing your job, why not clarify the queries in person and send a follow up email? and so the agency lady got tired of this tedious ping pong fluff and decided to step in and CALL each of you to explain the situation. honestly, its not a suit's job to manage internal client communications or whathaveyou politics but since she's twiddling her thumbs to the 15 day exit countdown, might as well do them a favour.__________________________
on a similar note, seems like the internal agency team is not communicating very well either. she was pulled into organising a meeting at the eleventh hour this morning for a luncheon at 12 today. long story. bloody annoying.
bee wrote this at 9:58 AM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
how much do you want to live?
there are times where she wonders if she would resort to cannibalism for survival.she remembered this line from saw:
"how much do you want to live?"
psycho to victim with a mouse trap like device strapped to her jaw.
apparently the mousetrap like thing would lead you to a gruesome death by snapping your jaws apart, splitting it wide open if she does not unlock it in time...and the key to this sick toy's embedded deep inside a man (who's been drugged so he can't move) with a convenient butcher knife next to him.
so...how much do you want to live?
she wanted to live very much and so she slashed the man apart, retrieved the key, unlocked the strapping device amidst sticky bloodied fingers and saved her face being blown apart by mere seconds.
freaky.
bee wrote this at 1:52 PM
garage sale
the TFG garage sale started on monday and is probably going to be ongoing till the end of the month. prices are going from $2-$15 max. we figured since the agency's taste in clothes and sizes are somewhat similar, why not bring the stuff which we could no longer fit in and exchange it with each other? made $49 so far and bartered the following:cool pick ups from candy and sharm:
- a lovely black silk dress with embroidered flowers
- spandex cotton burgundy knee length dress
- vintage silk japanese designer blouse
- pink knit italian top with mixture of cotton fabrics
- tiny vivenne westwood shirt
- pin striped hand carry tote
- bought adidas and puma gym tops at $3 each
music: messing round with detroit trance and old skool rave
bee wrote this at 9:25 AM
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
end of the road
there are days where you feel really low, somewhat like a redundant idiot.there are also days where you feel high, somewhat like an arrogant bitch.
it doesn't take alot to find the perfect balance but at the end of the day, it's really nice to know the client's appreciation of who and what you are, even though you think they could've overrated your performance at times.
i'm grateful to your offer and opportunity but this is not the industry i see myself in the next five years.
thank you nonetheless for the faith and support in me, for making me realise how fortunate life is in an agency as compared to yours and for respecting us having a life outside of work.
i ranted. i raved. i bitched. i whined about you for the past year. but you know what? i truly enjoyed the work i did with you (though it wasn't anything exhilarating like ad campaigns) and i'm looking forward to a new beginning, a fresh chapter of my life.
music: sinatra's something's gotta give
bee wrote this at 1:31 PM
Monday, October 03, 2005
mind blowing headaches
breakfast: apple cinnamon muffin and english breakfast tea with milkcurrent mood: horrendous pounding from the left brain. OUCH.
next steps: see a doc or head home to rest
bee wrote this at 10:47 AM
the weekend
the weekend was rather emotional.got a call on friday with the news that she didn't get the job she wanted most. alas it wasn't something surprising as she didn't fit the entire scope in the first place. at least she tried no? glum glum glum. anyhow, the other half tried cheering her up with pizza for dinner after last week's dinner fiasco. the one-for-one from spizzoco (i think) was a good deal considering how yummy the salami was. the other flavour was a bad choice (hers to boot somemore), it had little onion bits all over and she very nearly gagged after two slices. she could've sworn she saw no onions on the menu when she was ordering it.
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saturday morning was fun. she thought she'll end up looking five kilos heavier on print but no! so the gym work did turn out good, at least the $138 per month didn't go down the drain. hopefully her folks and family will never get to see that tattoo picture book or she'll have loads of explaining to do, in particular pseudo master. noon was spent catching up with tam and celine at marche heeren. haven't seen tam for the longest time and it broke my heart hearing her story. men, in general are big assholes and those who think with their dicks are often stupid ones who are not smart enough to recognise who's capable of supporting them on a long term basis. on another note, it's weird how the three of us are going through career hazards now. one's jobless, one's serving her notice and one's going through an extremely rocky stage. the night was spent alone with eyes glued to BBC on the bali bombings. how ironic that BBC covers more live updates than the local news when we are in fact closer to bali? my sympathies go out to the balinese.
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sunday morning was the second time in my life i woke up for morning church service, the first was last easter. it's a big feat for an agnostic to finally step into a church on her own freewill. the other half knows she's struggling to believe in all things religious, heaven and God but she's thankful he's been so patient all this time holding her hand as she doubts, loses focus and rant. lunch was spent watching open water, their DVD choice of the week. it's so disappointing cos the storyline had tremendous potential for really great material but the editing was a let down. thought the story would have been stronger if they had used the alternative opening scene where the diver's bag was washed ashore. ah well. headed off with pseudo master and mom to gramp's place for dinner. the car ride and the rest of the evening was ruined by his sudden foul and horrid menopausal moods where he became master of the universe and anyone who contradicted his point of view was scum in his eyes. whatever, me and mom are taking it easy these days cos we're looking forward to a week of peace when he leaves for paris and geneva this thursday. *evil* anyhow, he seemed better this morning so hopefully the black clouds will depart and he'll be back to normal by end day.
bee wrote this at 9:05 AM
